La Era Olvidada
Satori Shakoor is menopausal. The symptoms are unpredictable, and she's often caught off guard. In May 2022, two years after the worst of Covid, she boards the plane to Hawaii to the Island of Oahu fo…
La Era Olvidada
Satori Shakoor is menopausal. The symptoms are unpredictable, and she's often caught off guard. In May 2022, two years after the worst of Covid, she boards the plane to Hawaii to the Island of Oahu for a second honeymoon with her husband, Claudie. Once seated she has a panic attack. She can't breathe. It's so severe she has to get off the plane to collect herself. Conflicted, Satori reluctantly gets back on the plane only to discover it wasn't a panic attack. She's triggered by the memory of her escape to Hawaii to forget the crime she committed 40 years ago. That's when she realizes she isn't just going to Hawaii for a second honeymoon. She's going back to resurrect and reclaim herself. How will being in menopause help her? Satori remembers when the symptoms first started. It was 1995, she's 45 years old, living in Toronto at the time and her hormones go out of whack. She's pushed to be a cougar, a man-eater, a femme fatale with a biological imperative to get pregnant. Pregnancy terrifies her. She already has one child and is convinced she's not a good mother. Overwhelmed by hot flashes, mood swings, night sweats and a palpitating heart, Satori needs help in understanding what is happening to her. The first person she asks is her mother, Annie who doesn't remember her journey through menopause. However, she is sure Satori is at the beginning of the change of life from watching Oprah. Satori reflects on their conflicted relationship. It started when Annie was 50, going through perimenopause at the same time Satori, at age 14 was going through puberty. Clashing hormones set the tone for their relationship for years. Their relationship changed when Satori was in her 40's, when in the middle of an argument she realizes she's still blaming her mother for the choices she's made in her life. She begins to take responsibility for her choices and that leads to her forging a meaningful friendship with her mother. Annie suggests that Satori's palpitating heart may be due to her smoking. Satori has a serious nicotine addiction. She's smoking a pack and a half and counting. She tries to hide it from her mother, but her mother knows. Ashamed and desperate to be free of it, she decides to quit smoking on New Year's Eve, 1999. She needs to change. Nicotine withdrawal combined with the symptoms of menopause drive her crazy and at the same time give her a dazzling clarity. Truth is, she hates her dead-end temp job and dead-end life. Satori wants to pursue her dreams of being a writer and an actor with her own tv show. In a bold move, she impulsively quits her temp job. The next two years are scary and rocky, but Satori finds an agent, a therapist and her life begins to turn around. She is finally on the path of realizing her dreams. Then one morning in 2001, she gets a phone call from her mother. Annie has bad, bad news. Satori's son, Noah has been in a terrible car accident. Satori immediately jumps in her car and makes the four-hour trip from Toronto to Detroit. Noah is in the ICU hanging on to dear life. He has a brain injury. Khalid, Satori's ex-husband and Noah's father is there. The doctors tell them it will take three days before they will know how the surgery went. Noah has to wake up first. The wait is tough and emotionally upsetting. Memories of her past rush back. She begins to pour out confessions to Khalid of her severe postpartum depression after Noah's birth that she had no knowledge of at the time. Satori learned about postpartum depression on her 40th birthday. She was watching a TV show when she heard a mother on the panel telling her story of postpartum and its devastating effects without treatment. This mother's story was Satori's story. Maybe she wasn't a bad mother. Maybe she had been mentally ill. Satori confesses to Khalid the pain she suffered over his infidelity, his oppressive religion, her depression and the desire in her psychosis to destroy her son. Satori loved Noah, but she hated being his mother. After two years of living in fear, unhappiness and silence, Satori leaves Noah and Khalid and follows her guru to Hawaii. She believes if she doesn't leave, either she or Noah will die. Hawaii is a mystical place, a tropical, mental hospital if you will, where Satori meets the darkest parts of herself and lives them out. Her breakdown leads her to the question, who is she? Who is she really? In pursuit of an answer, Satori goes back to school and studies theatre. She becomes a gypsy moving to Los Angeles, Toronto and eventually back to Detroit after news of Noah's accident. Her guilt follows her wherever she goes. The ICU becomes a court of law of sorts. Each visitor who comes to visit Noah and comfort the family is a confession of her absence from her son's life. Satori is guilty and it doesn't matter that Noah had forgiven her years before. The question is can she ever forgive herself? Twelve days later, The doctors come back with good news that Noah is awake. Satori moves back to Detroit from Toronto to be close to him. She gets a second chance to mother him through the long and hard healing process. They talk and listen and come to terms with their past and they begin to forge a new relationship as mother and son. Five years following the car accident, Noah has a massive seizure and dies. He dies 9 months after her mother passes away at 86, whose legacy is finding the thank you and gratitude in everything. Noah's death is a devastating blow to Satori. She is a dead woman walking. Her mother's legacy is laughable. It's a lie. Satori can't find any gratitude or grace in this cruel act of God. In 2011, six years after the death of Noah and her mother, Satori wants to live. She has a granddaughter, Noah's daughter who she also wants to live for. Problem is, Wall Street has crashed. "Too Big to Fail" had failed her and the life and career she had built as an artist. Satori is running out of money and needs a job. The thought of a job reminds her of how much she hated being a temp and what it took to leave it and take on her dreams. The reality is Satori has to put her things in storage and move out of her loft, into a bedroom in her sister's house with no future in sight. But she vows to do what she loves to do for the rest of her life, no matter what. It's a harrowing time finding work as an artist, but she hangs on driven by her commitment to do only what she loves. Then one night on stage at The Moth, Satori discovers in telling her story she is healing and forgiving herself. It dawns on her that storytelling is her purpose and calling. Could storytelling be a service? This leads her to create The Secret Society Of Twisted Storytellers in Detroit in 2012, with a mission to connect humanity, heal and transform community through the art and craft of storytelling. The Secret Society Of Twisted Storytellers becomes a platform where others could share their stories and make a difference. She loves it and is fulfilled through it. It takes twelve years for Satori to come through menopause, an awesome rite of passage. It has led her fully embraced her power and the freedom of her full self-expression. Finally, Satori knows who she is. In 2017, Satori meets Claudie who she falls in love with and eventually marries. They vow to live their bucket list dreams together. They return from their second honeymoon trip to Hawaii. Mission accomplished. Satori has resurrected, reclaimed and finally forgiven herself for her past. She realizes that there is only one perfect mother and that mother is grace. Satori is finally free. Gratitude is her religion now. Thank you, her only prayer.
La Era Olvidada
Drama,Fantasy,History
Film Details
Satori Shakoor is menopausal. The symptoms are unpredictable, and she's often caught off guard. In May 2022, two years after the worst of Covid, she boards the plane to Hawaii to the Island of Oahu for a second honeymoon with her husband, Claudie.
Once seated she has a panic attack. She can't breathe. It's so severe she has to get off the plane to collect herself.
Conflicted, Satori reluctantly gets back on the plane only to discover it wasn't a panic attack. She's triggered by the memory of her escape to Hawaii to forget the crime she committed 40 years ago. That's when she realizes she isn't just going to Hawaii for a second honeymoon.
She's going back to resurrect and reclaim herself. How will being in menopause help her? Satori remembers when the symptoms first started. It was 1995, she's 45 years old, living in Toronto at the time and her hormones go out of whack.
She's pushed to be a cougar, a man-eater, a femme fatale with a biological imperative to get pregnant. Pregnancy terrifies her. She already has one child and is convinced she's not a good mother.
Overwhelmed by hot flashes, mood swings, night sweats and a palpitating heart, Satori needs help in understanding what is happening to her. The first person she asks is her mother, Annie who doesn't remember her journey through menopause. However, she is sure Satori is at the beginning of the change of life from watching Oprah.
Satori reflects on their conflicted relationship. It started when Annie was 50, going through perimenopause at the same time Satori, at age 14 was going through puberty. Clashing hormones set the tone for their relationship for years.
Their relationship changed when Satori was in her 40's, when in the middle of an argument she realizes she's still blaming her mother for the choices she's made in her life. She begins to take responsibility for her choices and that leads to her forging a meaningful friendship with her mother. Annie suggests that Satori's palpitating heart may be due to her smoking.
Satori has a serious nicotine addiction. She's smoking a pack and a half and counting. She tries to hide it from her mother, but her mother knows.
Ashamed and desperate to be free of it, she decides to quit smoking on New Year's Eve, 1999. She needs to change. Nicotine withdrawal combined with the symptoms of menopause drive her crazy and at the same time give her a dazzling clarity.
Truth is, she hates her dead-end temp job and dead-end life. Satori wants to pursue her dreams of being a writer and an actor with her own tv show. In a bold move, she impulsively quits her temp job.
The next two years are scary and rocky, but Satori finds an agent, a therapist and her life begins to turn around. She is finally on the path of realizing her dreams. Then one morning in 2001, she gets a phone call from her mother.
Annie has bad, bad news. Satori's son, Noah has been in a terrible car accident. Satori immediately jumps in her car and makes the four-hour trip from Toronto to Detroit.
Noah is in the ICU hanging on to dear life. He has a brain injury. Khalid, Satori's ex-husband and Noah's father is there.
The doctors tell them it will take three days before they will know how the surgery went. Noah has to wake up first. The wait is tough and emotionally upsetting.
Memories of her past rush back. She begins to pour out confessions to Khalid of her severe postpartum depression after Noah's birth that she had no knowledge of at the time. Satori learned about postpartum depression on her 40th birthday.
She was watching a TV show when she heard a mother on the panel telling her story of postpartum and its devastating effects without treatment. This mother's story was Satori's story. Maybe she wasn't a bad mother.
Maybe she had been mentally ill. Satori confesses to Khalid the pain she suffered over his infidelity, his oppressive religion, her depression and the desire in her psychosis to destroy her son. Satori loved Noah, but she hated being his mother.
After two years of living in fear, unhappiness and silence, Satori leaves Noah and Khalid and follows her guru to Hawaii. She believes if she doesn't leave, either she or Noah will die. Hawaii is a mystical place, a tropical, mental hospital if you will, where Satori meets the darkest parts of herself and lives them out.
Her breakdown leads her to the question, who is she? Who is she really? In pursuit of an answer, Satori goes back to school and studies theatre. She becomes a gypsy moving to Los Angeles, Toronto and eventually back to Detroit after news of Noah's accident. Her guilt follows her wherever she goes.
The ICU becomes a court of law of sorts. Each visitor who comes to visit Noah and comfort the family is a confession of her absence from her son's life. Satori is guilty and it doesn't matter that Noah had forgiven her years before.
The question is can she ever forgive herself? Twelve days later, The doctors come back with good news that Noah is awake. Satori moves back to Detroit from Toronto to be close to him. She gets a second chance to mother him through the long and hard healing process.
They talk and listen and come to terms with their past and they begin to forge a new relationship as mother and son. Five years following the car accident, Noah has a massive seizure and dies. He dies 9 months after her mother passes away at 86, whose legacy is finding the thank you and gratitude in everything.
Noah's death is a devastating blow to Satori. She is a dead woman walking. Her mother's legacy is laughable.
It's a lie. Satori can't find any gratitude or grace in this cruel act of God. In 2011, six years after the death of Noah and her mother, Satori wants to live.
She has a granddaughter, Noah's daughter who she also wants to live for. Problem is, Wall Street has crashed. "Too Big to Fail" had failed her and the life and career she had built as an artist.
Satori is running out of money and needs a job. The thought of a job reminds her of how much she hated being a temp and what it took to leave it and take on her dreams. The reality is Satori has to put her things in storage and move out of her loft, into a bedroom in her sister's house with no future in sight.
But she vows to do what she loves to do for the rest of her life, no matter what. It's a harrowing time finding work as an artist, but she hangs on driven by her commitment to do only what she loves. Then one night on stage at The Moth, Satori discovers in telling her story she is healing and forgiving herself.
It dawns on her that storytelling is her purpose and calling. Could storytelling be a service? This leads her to create The Secret Society Of Twisted Storytellers in Detroit in 2012, with a mission to connect humanity, heal and transform community through the art and craft of storytelling. The Secret Society Of Twisted Storytellers becomes a platform where others could share their stories and make a difference.
She loves it and is fulfilled through it. It takes twelve years for Satori to come through menopause, an awesome rite of passage. It has led her fully embraced her power and the freedom of her full self-expression.
Finally, Satori knows who she is. In 2017, Satori meets Claudie who she falls in love with and eventually marries. They vow to live their bucket list dreams together.
They return from their second honeymoon trip to Hawaii. Mission accomplished. Satori has resurrected, reclaimed and finally forgiven herself for her past.
She realizes that there is only one perfect mother and that mother is grace. Satori is finally free. Gratitude is her religion now.
Thank you, her only prayer..